12/03/2006

 

Regrets

On my last day here in Nicagaragua I would like to post a text about regrets. Bill from India asked at Orkut if we have any regrets.

Below is my reply.

'Non je ne regrette rien'

I have many regrets, many things I wanted to have done differently, many things I would like to change in my life and in myself.

But I am who I am and I try my best and that is all I can do. Being completely myself means to be far from perfect but to be good as I am, I believe.

The hardest part is letting go (Coldplay)...

I could feel it go down
Bittersweet the taste in my mouth
Silver lining the clouds
Oh, and I,
I wish that I could work it out

And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
You really broke my heart
And I tried to sing
But I couldn't think of anything
And that was the hardest part

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do it just comes undone
And everything is torn apart
And that's the hardest part

Acceptance is what is needed, acceptance of who I really am, of what I really want, to accept the circumstances, also when they are bad and difficult, and to accept others as they are.

And to work on changes for the better, never to give up.

'God give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.'

And also this one from Coldplay:

Now I never meant
To do you wrong
That's what I came here to say

But if I was wrong
Then I'm sorry
I don't let it stand in our way

As my head just aches
When I think of
The things that I shouldn't have done

But, life is for living
We all know
And I don't wanna live it alone

Comments:
And here is a poem from Bill in reply:

Make pain a window
Transparent
so you can look back
And remember
But shut airtight
So the smells, the sounds
The painfulness of pain
Is locked away.
Then you can begin to move forward
And if only, if only you want
Look back again,
And remember.
 
And here is my reaction to Bill:

I think it is possible to find protection against bitterness, there are different sorts of pain, loss and sadness. It can be cynical, frustrated and embittered or it can be without the loss of goodness, by accepting the pain which cannot be avoided, by choosing to carry it on your shoulders. Within suffering even a beauty can be seen.
 
Future predication of your ir community in orkut it can be deleted well lady war is war nobody innocent in war.
 
Future predication of your ir community in orkut it can be deleted well lady in war nobody is innocent.Dont cry in rofl scrapbook i know how he got europe community rofl was banned in europe community he was aginst europe community and by the way lady i have no intention of owning or moderating your community.
 
Pain can become a heavy burden carried on your shoulders. To carry it, but inside yourself, can make an unexpected difference.
 
Acceptance helps a lot, and to take a distance to come to yourself and find peace of mind...

And I like to add one more part of a song here (from Sting):

"I saw a friend of mine, he said:
You look different somehow
I said: Everybody's got to leave the darkness sometime"
 
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And to Hamas:

I wasn't crying to Rolf, I just posted some "interesting news".

Do you really think I would be shocked by your threats?

Just like Hendrik and Catherina survived living without a Europe community I can do without IR just as well...
 
it is not good to hold pain inside for long; instead,
you should learn how to dissolve it, and make it disappear.
 
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